Push

But not really in a bad way.

There is an insane amount of trauma in this book, so please please PLEASE look into the triggers if you have any.

This book had literally no shining moments. You have an unreliable narrator, and it's so hard to decide if what you're reading actually happened or not. Just..insanity. Very good. Would be super cautious for who I would recommend this book to. 10000% would never recommend to someone who suffered from infant loss.

The only thing about this novel that thrilled me was returning it to the library.

I couldn't read this book in any less than 100-page sittings, it held my attention in a vice. It's been a while since I put a book down and counted down until I had time to pick it back up again. Disturbing plot, painful focus on where familial abuse/ legacies of trauma meet mental illness meet the rollercoaster of motherhood, wanted and not.

3.5 stars. This was a breeze to read, it dragged just a couple times for me. I don’t know that it added much to this type of story - unreliable narrator, is the kid evil or not, etc. But I did enjoy the emphasis on motherhood and the expectations of motherhood. The shame in expressing anything besides “it’s all worth it!”