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Good lord this is a massive book (don't let the page count fool you).
In terms of writing style:
- everything is written clearly, there are no unexplained references to political or scientific figures, no over-use of scientific wording or reliance on other works to explain concepts (the importance of this cannot be overstated)
- sentences kind of flow together too much, I found myself highlighting dozens of pages at once, because that's quite literally how long it took to state something sometimes
- there was an overuse of question -> long unpacking of question -> answer posed as question -> unpacking of answer posed as question -> proof of answer. I get that the question needed to be asked in an appealing way, to get people like me to keep reading, but for backtracking this is going to be painful as shit.
On the content:
- detailed to death, especially as an amateur it got very overwhelming at some points, especially as there are sometimes pages of what I felt like completely unnecessary context
- an actually fresh view of history is given, not just a slightly different reiteration of "common-sense" projected backwards in time
- on top of my previous point, it's also optimistic in spirit
In terms of information
- if you're going into this to have the "Origin of Everything" question answered with some brand new scientific breakthrough you will be sorely disappointed. Most of questions that I had are not answered, but rendered useless in this new view of history the authors show
- it's up to date and references very recent (and very old) research
- there's a lot of information given out in general, as I've explained it's very detailed, so you do kind of get a decent overview of history as well, although if that's what you're after there's better books

This will be the most biased review of all time. I think I've discovered the book at the perfect time in my life (as I hit an all-time low in my mid-to-late 20s). I think a more successful version of myself, would have instantly discarded it whole, rated it as "too pretentious". If I was 16 I'd have said "bruh this Hesse is trippin frfr". And if I was in my 50s, I'd have said the main character is too much of a bitch. Even if I'd read a copy without the contextualized mini-biography, I'd have probably liked it a lot less. Genuinely just a perfect shitstorm of events.

It's almost as if the goal of the book is for you to outgrow it. Sure, there's literary merit to it all. The story keeps you gripped, the characters are okay, and it's generally unique. I assume someone well versed in eastern spirituality would find plenty of little parallels to Hinduism, an art student might find the outward sexuality and drug abuse hecking stunning and brave.

The main character is strangely relatable (but I assume this would be rare for most people... I hope). He's a man operating in the intellectual circles, with his inner life oscillating between a sense of superiority to the people around him, and inferiority to his heroes. All this, while never finding enjoyment in the little things (that hits hard). Analyzing great works of art(the irony) instead of just enjoying them. And just generally being miserable, even with moments of him being pleasant to be around. The bit about constantly feeling suicidal also hit like a truck. The author somehow understood this feeling of being liberated by your impending suicide, but not completely, and putting it off, constantly suffering in this cycle. Setting dates (the MC resolves to kill himself on his 50th birthday), then postponing it while also having no real allegiance to your body and soul (you're gonna die anyway, might as well stay addicted to this thing), etc. I've never come across this in any story before.

In his mind, all this misery has a logical reason. He has a split personality! All his bad traits can be attributed to the steppe wolf within him. But the book being self-aware, and exposing this as a simplification, and only scratching at the truth, that's why it's so good.

But out of all this misery, it all finds a positive note. Can't get into spoilers, or how the "story" ends, but it does give you a sense of

"It's not too late".

You don't know what's true or what's made up, but it doesn't matter because the book gets its point across pretty well.

I think I've illustrated the emotion it made me feel, so I'll try to be a bit objective now.

- The book constantly uses symbolism, dreams and drug trips to get its point across
- The prose might be a bit pretentious, but still enjoyable
- The story likely does not hold up without emotional investment into the main character
- At points, the symbolism gets kind of overwhelming (figurines, technology, infinite personalities, time isn't real???)

I'd recommend it to anyone that's feeling kind of lost, feeling isolated, but unlike most books with this kind of character, it's not trying to teach you how to be outwardly accepted. It's to teach you how to accept yourself, and go at life with humor.