"No one ever told me that grief felt so like fear..." begins a penetrating exploration of the anguish C.S. Lewis felt after the death of his wife from bone cancer. By all accounts, writer and theologian C.S. Lewis' brief (four years) marriage to Joy Davidson was an intense and profoundly felt relationship for both of them. Lewis' extraordinary examination of his feelings around her loss is both deeply personal and highly intellectual, yet to anyone who has lost someone they love, his feelings and thoughts will seem familiar.

This book was way too Christian for me, and I suppose being married for only four years could heighten the grief when one of the partners dies, but I still found Lewis' attempt to understand a senseless loss unique and almost luminous.