That's probably all I can say on finishing this mess of a book. It felt like it were three different books crammed into one and none of them made sense. Maybe it's just me, I dunno. Maybe all the contradictory plot holes were what this book was really about? I'll probably never find out. I (kinda) understood the ending, btw, but still, it's a definitive No from me.

CW: blood/gore, medical procedures, body horror, illness/death, miscarriage/abortion, drugs, sex scenes, mc eating weird stuff (which is described in yucky detail), lies/gaslighting, violence, blurring reality/imagination, cults