I read on and on, wanting to know what happened to Dee's sister, but wow, was the plot twist and end of Dee's story disappointing. Hers was the plot line that made me continue reading, and then this, wth. It just left me annoyed at having wasted my time. The other plot lines of the story mostly just drag on, there are multiple characters rambling, then there's the reveal, which consists of a trope you can guess rather early on, then there's more rambling, and even at the end and after reading the author's note I couldn't really understand what was the point of the book. It was disturbing in its very detailed descriptions of child and animal abuse.

And then after the reveal, [Spoiler] there was not a single word about Ted's dates and if he actually murdered them or just imagined he did? Did he even really go? What was that plot line for? Just to frame him as a weirdo and serial killer even more?

It was so confusing at times to the point it got frustrating, and I don't get why this book was so hyped. It was definitely not for me and I wouldn't recommend it, either.

CW: murder/suicide, illness/death, child abuse & death, animal abuse & death, violence, blood/gore, mental illness, kidnapping, drugs & alcohol, medical procedures used as torture, ableism, self harm. (I guess there's more, these are just the ones I noticed.)