I don't know what I'm supposed to get from Proust - I failed to read that book a few years ago - but here's how it damaged me:

Well, scrap that colon, too. I can't share it. I've just written my longest review and deleted it for being a bit way too personal.

I've been using books to fill spaces that shouldn't be filled, smothering an internal monologue that needs to have its say. It's time for a break.