Review of 'Ice' on 'LibraryThing'
3 stars
I think there are five things that are integral to this, the semiautobiographical tome of Ice-T:
1. His upbringing.
MY FATHER, who was a church-going, nine-to-five guyâdid his best to raise me on his own after my mother died. My aunt who lived right behind us helped to raise me, too. My father also had a housekeeper named Miss Sanoniâshe was from the Deep Southâand she would come over every day and cook these Southern dishes for dinner. So they all chipped in to raise me. Well, raise me? Thatâs kind of a stretch. Wasnât too much raising going on. Just like my mother, my father wasnât much of a talker. He was more of a supporter. The bills were paid. I ate. Nurturing? Naw. That wasnât my popsâ style. Nobody in my immediate circle talked to me much. Nobody asked about how I was feeling. Thatâs the main reason that, these days, I talk to my kids a lot. I talk to my wife a lot. But in my house as a kid, there was just not a lot of conversation. My parents and my aunts werenât made in that letâs-talk-it-out mold.
2. His need for adrenaline in connection with crime while growing up.
From the minute we woke up, we were constantly scheming to rob someplace. Pulling licks. Weâd stand around, playfully taunting each other. âWhat? You scared of money? Nigga, you scared of money?â That one phrase sent more people to prison in my neighborhood than anything else.
3. Anti-feminism.
Apart from his use of gender as an extremely jaded, stereotypical form of view - notably on his first album covers - his views on "pimpin'" and how women like pimping (as opposed to men, I see) is sadly telling. Also, his views on his daughter as opposed to none of the above applied to his son are telling, even though it's quite the joke:
But now that Iâve transformed, Teshaâs starting to look for guys that are more like the new me rather than the old me. When she was growing up, I was hustling. Thatâs who I was. I was doing dirt every day. She went after those criminal-minded guys. Now that Iâm on TVâwho the fuck knows? Maybe sheâll go after an actor.
4. His ability to take the piss out of himself and to have a good view on things.
Hereâs one real jewel from the game. Pimps and hoes donât fall in love, they make love. I like to use the strip club example because most men wonât cop to having been with a hooker, but they will admit theyâve been to the strip club. When youâre in the club, that girl giving you lap dances, looking into your eyes, doesnât love you. Sheâs making love to you. Your dumb ass thinks she loves you and you give her all your money. Sorry. She doesnât give a shit about you, dog. The big bosses at NBC donât love me; they make love to me. They act like they love me because my fucking show is making money. Iâm putting millions of dollars into their bank account. Iâm a top-shelf ho, but Iâm still a ho.
5. A big dash of narcissism.
In retrospect, I understand: Dude is a child. As a child you donât really have guidance. Maybe he doesnât know about the ground-breaking artists who laid the foundation for him. Maybe he doesnât know enough to pay homage to those men. Or maybe he isnât capable of making better music. I mean, itâs not his intent to destroy hip-hop. Soulja Boy doesnât know me from a can of paint. Good luck with his career. Good luck to everything heâs trying to do.
I'm glad to say that Ice-T is very straight-forward in this book. Everything basically is what it is, and he doesn't duck issues by blaming others; he doesn't even lean into the fact that his parents both died when he was young, even indicating that/they might be to blame for his early adolescent choices in life. True, they might be, having cold-fronted him in a variety of ways (see point #1 above).
At the same time, he makes valid points as how come a lot of damaged childhoods end up with gangs:
Yeah, I was detached. But looking back on my childhood, I donât think there was an attachment. In other words, even when I was a little kid and Iâd fall off my bike, skin my knees and want to cry, there was nobody to really cry to. So I learned to suck it up really quick. Iâd hit the ground, dust my ass off and not show anybody that I was fucked up. I wasnât one of these kids who was always coming home with hurt feelings, running to hug my mother. None of that clingy, emotional shit was my reality. I grew up in a nonaffectionate household. I think kids are trained to know what theyâre going to get, and once they get a taste of it, theyâll always want more. Itâs like that shit with Pavlovâs dog. If you cuddle a kid a lot, heâll want more cuddling. If you donât, heâll just accept that as his reality. He doesnât look for the added affection. Everybody in the family was bugging out that I didnât cry when my father died. They remembered how I hadnât shed a tear for my mother, either. But I just wasnât built like that. Wasnât wired like that. I didnât have an ounce of self-pity in my bones. It didnât hit me, Damn, Iâm an orphan. Even as a twelve-year-old kid, I knew I was going to have to make it on my own, and my survival instincts were kicking in.
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Ice (Ice-T)
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I was deep enough in the life to understand one crucial thing about the gang life: The flip side of the violence and negativity is the love. And thatâs some extreme love. Extreme love. I only realized this recently: When I got to Crenshaw High, thatâs the first time Iâd ever heard someone say love to me. My aunt never said she loved me. My mother and father were never big on that word. You get to Crenshaw, and you got a male friend saying, âCuz, ainât nothinâ never finâ to happen to you, homey. You safe, cuz. I love you.â Thatâs some heavy shit. Like a lot of the homeys, I was getting something I wished Iâd gotten from my father. When I was a little kid and something happened to me, I didnât want my dad to call the police. Fuck that. I wanted to say, âGo get âem, Dad!â Of course, hardly anybody has it like that in real life, but every little kid wants to believe that his pops is Superman. And that protection you get from the gang is something most people in the âhood donât get from their families. To me, itâs interesting that some of the kids who came from big families, families with four or five brothers, didnât need to join the gangs. Because they had that unconditional protection. âYo, donât fuck with meâI got a couple of brothers that will come see you, nigga.â I didnât have that big family structure. And like everybody else, I wanted that feeling that someone had my back. Yes, the first I really heard love expressed was with the Crips. Not only heard the word âlove,â but saw it firsthand. Saw it manifested. Saw that if you fuck with one of us, you fuck with all of us. Thatâs very enticing. Thatâs very attractive to a young brother. Itâs human nature. Weâve always had armies and tribes, teams and squads. That sense of loyalty, brotherhood, loveâitâs very primal, itâs at the core of what it means to be a human. And itâs authentic loveâas real and as deeply felt as any love out thereâbut itâs just misdirected in gangs.
There's also what I think is a very important aspect to his life, discipline, life on the streets and the view of that, crime and his later, more legit way of life: his four years in the military:
Thereâs something civilians often donât realize about the military. Youâre really only trained to do two things: Kill people and take over shit. Youâre not coming home with too many other useful skills, unless you plan on becoming a police officer. Today, weâve got young vets touching down from Iraq and Afghanistan whoâve killed a shitload of people, and if theyâre not properly reprogrammed to come back into society, itâs not like that âkill switchâ is an easy thing to turn off...
And yes, there are a lot of funny sides of the book, both legit and not:
We snatched all the furs and disappeared into the catacombs, moving too fast for any pursuit. We got outside and were laughing because weâd got away so easily. As I looked at the mountain of mink and fox coats, I was already doing the mental calculations and figured they were worth maybe $50,000. We could sell them that same night for about $10,000. We started loading and stuffing all the minks into the trunk, backseat, and front seat and got into our car. We couldnât see out the windows because the mink was piled all the way up. The driver had to clear a little rectangular space so he could see where he was going. When we pulled away in the car, people kept staring at us and laughing, because we looked like a fucking furball driving down the street.
...and:
Now, looking back on it, this is what I learned: Yes, you have the right to say whatever you want in America, but you have to be prepared for the ramifications of what you say. When I yelled âCop Killer,â I did not prepare for the fallout. Iâd been dissing rappers for years; they didnât do shit. Then I dissed the copsâand they came after me like no gang Iâve ever encountered. Then Charlton Heston, Tipper Gore, and the President of the United States himself came after me.
...
When this shit happened, when Charlton Heston went into that shareholders meeting, thirty million dollars went into the balance. Charlton Heston, as the head of the National Rifle Association, impacted the Warner Bros. bottom line. He stood there in the meeting reading my lyrics like it was a page from the Planet of the Apes script. I GOT MY 12 GAUGE SAWED OFF I GOT MY HEADLIGHTS TURNED OFF IâM ABOUT TO BUST SOME SHOTS OFF IâM ABOUT TO DUST SOME COPS OFF ⦠He didnât even know what he was talking about. âThese are the lyrics to âKiller Cop,â â he said. âOops, I mean âCop Killer.â â Heâs so outraged, yet he doesnât even know the name of the record? It was some crazy, hypocritical bullshit.
All in all, a nice read. There's a lot of preachiness in the latter part of the book but then again, he's over 50 years old. And he's got a lot to say, and has so far lead an exceptional life, being one of the grandfathers of rap and gangsta music; he's been first in quite a few fields, and has a living acting career, not to mention his seminal hardcore band Body Count.
A recommended read.