Gilead

This is a book that is ultimately difficult to rate. One one hand it is kind of boring. It's the musings of an old man looking back on a simple life dedicated to his congregation, his small town, his close friends and family. Nothing much by way of plot or great character development. The prose, to me was simple and quiet and reflective. But on the other hand this story is very powerful because it is about what a life well lived should feel like in the end. The regrets should be few and small. The power of forgiveness and empathy should never fade even as, alas, we fade. The grace of faith is a powerful gift, the one who is blessed with it should be eternally grateful.

I might add that I am someone who like Jack Ames Boughton has struggled mightily with things like faith and God and religion. But as I age and put behind me many of life's major milestones I long for forgiveness and understanding. I wish I had faith to hold me up, to guide me, to shine a light into the unknown. To live a righteous life, to know you have been a giving and forgiving person, to know you have done your very best to help your fellow man become the best he could be as well, is a beautiful thing and worthy, I think, even if nothing too exciting or spectacular ever happened in that lifetime.

Rambling. I'm sorry, but this is the kind of feeling this book leaves me with. The desire to be considered worthy in the eyes of God. (Who, perversely, I don't always believe to be real, LOL) :P

Gilead, by Marilynne Robinson, had me hanging on every word. It's not the kind of novel I could read bits and pieces of during stolen moments; it demanded my undivided attention because of its earnestness and introspection.

This novel is a long letter written by an elderly man, The Reverand John Ames, to his young son, whom he will not see into adulthood. I found Reverand Ames to be a fascinating character because he knew himself so very well, exploring his feelings with rare objectivity and honesty. Ames lived through some very hard times, had a couple harrowing experiences, and lived through a long period of loneliness. Then, in his old age, he encountered unexpected joy, which served as his motivation for writing his story.

His many lonely years set in after his young wife died in childbirth, and though his congregation surrounded him always, providing meals and such, there was an emptiness in his life that was perhaps magnified by the sight of his closest and oldest friend's large family, that of The Reverand Boughton. When this friend surprises Ames by having him christen his son John Ames Boughton, Reverand Ames is overcome with feelings he has trouble dealing with.

However, Rev. Ames spends most of his time writing his son about the history of their family in Gilead, Iowa, about his father and eccentric grandfather, both of whom were ministers. The stories he has to tell about his family, particularly the anecdotal ones about his grandfather, are unique and sometimes downright funny. Rev. Ames's missive eventually stops being a history and turns more philosophical when he tells of how he met his second wife, a young woman who appeared in church one day, a stranger in town, and how it felt to have what he thought he'd never have: a wife and child, gifts he'd never dared to hope for in his old age.

Towards the end of Rev. Ames's writing, Jack Ames Boughton, his now middle-aged namesake, has suddenly appeared back in town after a long absence, and the elderly reverand gradually admits to all the mixed feelings he has kept locked away about his friend's eldest child. Jack Boughton was a strangely lonely child with a mean streak, a bright but extremely mischievous kid who escaped a lot of trouble simply because people respected his father so much. Jack's entire family always loved him, bent over backwards to take care of him, and Rev. Ames bit his tongue quite often, rather than let his father in on some of the hurtful pranks Jack had played on him.

At first, Rev. Ames is suspicious of Jack's reason for coming back, and even fears him, pondering the notion of warning his wife, agonizing over whether it was fair or not to still be so distrustful. It becomes apparent, though, that Jack is very disturbed about something, and wants very much to speak to Rev. Ames. After many unsuccessful attempts at conversation, the two men are gradually able to speak to one another again, and when Rev. Ames is able to work through his feelings and talk to Jack, he finds out what has occurred in the younger man's life and gains an understanding of Jack he'd never had. It's a revelation, it's like he's been granted another gift in his old age. Even though there's not much the elderly minister can do for Jack, they have made their peace, a burden has been taken off Rev. Ames before he departs, and Jack literally departs Gilead with the blessing he never felt before.

Gilead is a beautiful book that reads like an authentic journal of one Rev. John Ames of Gilead, Iowa, particularly because he refers so much to scripture and explores his own interpretation of it. In the end, I sincerely hoped Rev. Ames's son grew up to cherish this account, and I also wished to know what happened in Jack Boughton's life, and hoped that Rev. Ames's son and Jack would somehow stay in each other's lives. I highly recommend this book.